ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP

At this current point in time I am unenthusiastic about blogging. Actually, overall I am unenthusiatic about blogging...hence the name of this blog, The Anti-Blog. There was way to many blogs in that last sentence so I am about to attempt to not use that word for the rest of this point. My eyes are refusing to stay open and that dizzy, dull feeling of sleep seems to be weighing upon them. Sadly, I am not going to be able to sleep until late this night. BUT THAT IS ALL I WANT. Right after school I have volleyball practice and then I have a ridiculous amount of stats. And on top of that I have sketches to complete for AP Art. Most people would probably look at that last task and say, "So what?". However, it would appear that with any piece of art I complete I have OCD about it being the best it can be and will not stop until I am satisfied. It takes me at least an hour a sketch. Don't get me wrong, I love art, but it is stressing me out at this point in time...questions are always in the back of my mind. Like, "What if this turns out to look like crap?" and "What if, after all, I have no skill?". For Homecoming this year I made the hugely obnocxious sign that everyone looks at right as they walk into the school and the whole three hours I spent making it, spray paint in hand, I was worried sick. I think I need to make a concious effort to not worry as much. Gives me too many headaches. That makes me think of another thing I am making a concious effort to do, or in this case not to do. There is so much unnecessary drama this year within our grade that I am not attempting to not talk about anyone negatively. I want to leave this school on a positive note and at the rate this years seniors are going, everyone will end alone and without friends. I want to remember high school as the best years of my life, not look back with regrets.